After witnessing a friend’s wedding on a beautiful Sunday evening, i felt empty inside.
An individual man and a woman becoming as one, with a promise to love and stand by each other till death do them part, portrays the holiness and beauty of a marriage.
Guess I’ve forgotten what is love, and how to love.

Can someone guide me?

It’s weird to think that I’m less interesting/important than a business system. I was just thinking of the activities we did; eg, talking on the phone at night: he’ll be on his laptop most of the time while talking on the phone with me. While talking to me, he have a very tendency to sleep on the phone. Another eg, in a mist of quarrel: he can just send me back home, talk the lift to the 20th floor with me, watch me walk out of the lift. And when I asked him if he could stay to talk things out, he replied that we should not waste unnecessary money on cab. (when he took cab like no body’s business) last scene, we were at Mac talking about his business plan, he can go on for hours, not checking his watch, ignoring the fact that it’s like getting late, his eyes sparkles with enthusiasm and joy when he speaks of how the business system works.

The fact that I am unable to gain his full attention, just makes me think that I’m unattractive. And not to mention, weird.

In order to survive, the organism will need to adapt to its environment.
For those who fail to adapt and live, they die, and their precious DNA and traits will vanish from the face of this earth.
For those who survive, congratulations. They reproduce, and they stand a chance of dominating the rest of the species.

new year, new begining.
new year, new resolutions.

Guess i’ll need to be like Bacillus subtilis, which have the ability to form endospores to survive harsh environment.
Looking forward to have a good year.
Gonna smile, gotta be stronger than the past years. (:

Have you ever wonder..

What makes people happy?
Why people cry?
Why people have to lie and hide things from their love ones?

I wish I know all these answers..

Couldn’t sleep last night. Alot of things running across my head.

It feels like you dont wanna make the extra effort.
It feels like you don’t care about how i feel.
It feels like you don’t want me to be part of your life.

you are tired. im tired too. i dont know what you want. i cant meet your expectation. im tired of figuring out how to play this game. didn’t know that my that micro request is that hard to be fulfilled. its like a huge chore to you.
I’ve decided to let things be how it is.
Do what you want, i dont wanna be affected by you.
I gonna stand by my ways.

Gawd, i’ve set up this blog for around a year, and it has been soooo freaking long since the last updates.
anyway, i doubt anyone will read this. muwahahah!

I’ve started working life, and have been freaking busy ever since.
It seems that i dont have time for anything else.
The days pass soooo fast! It’s year end again. ):
I miss school, I miss those times.
I miss those times that we have to rush our assignments;
I miss those times that we chiong from classes to classes.

Moments captured in my mind.

well, areas for improvements!

I’m all smiles today because today marks the day of my freedom.
As of now, i have no bondage with anything that deals with exams. (:
I’m done-ed with my chemistry2 and maths1.
really hope that everything will go on smoothly.

well, the end of school terms also means that i’ll have to work (:
i’ll miss school. seriously
school’s  the place that i have sooo much laughter, joy and stress. hahah!

Once again, i’m seeking for jobs. (:
God bless me. amen.

We’re meant to lose the people we love.
How else would we know how important they are to us?

and if oneday we ever lose someone,
it would be because we have neglected.

Nope, i’ll never want to lose you.

nowadays i’ve been listening to class 95 at night, and i realise that oldies are soooooo mucchhhh better then the songs that are produced recently. In my personal opinion, classic love songs are filled with so much emotions that they flow out to touch the listerners’ heart, whereas now, alot of the love songs actually are just about sex. >.< 

yeaterday, i was at mac, wanting to revise my chemistry, class 95 was playing this song- Nothing’s gonna change my love for you by Glenn Mederios. gawd, i just melted. very nice (:  it’s just so, awwww~. =D i’m in a very lovey dovey mood~

 
Love like you have never been hurt.
If not the one that you’re loving is losing out big time.
Don’t shortchange the one you love (:

I’m doing my very best to be positive. (:
I’m gonna stay like that.

and…

I’M STARTING SCHOOL TOMORROW! I’M FREAKING NERVOUS! i cant sleep, i cant sleep! maybe it’s because it’s been a long time since i’ve been attending lesson. hmmm, let’s see, it’s around 6 months. 6 MONTHS! it’s half a year! >.<

*packs bag*
crap, where’s my lab coat? nevermind
*continue packing*
hmmm, where’s all my stationery?   aiyoooo >.<

sooooo looking forward to lessons. (: (: (: